#53 - its christmas time!

i like how i actually sound enthusiastic about christmas.
this is the first christmas in a while that i was actually quite happy and into it...even though it didn't even feel like christmas.

kind of feels like it crept up on me. i've been too busy to really let the holiday season sink in to me.
regardless, it was still a good christmas. didn't do much. i never usually do. went to a family friend's party for christmas eve...that's always chill. went to my cousin's christmas day. that was chill too...and i got to play with my cute nephews.

but yea, the past few years, christmas has been blah.
this year it wasn't. and i'm thankful for that. i'm actually feeling good and happy about it. and there's still new years.
i can never go out on new years though because my parents always hold a party at my house. kind of sucks because i actually want to go out. but it's whatevers. i'm not going to trip. i'm still pretty happy about everything.

didn't really ask for anything this christmas, but i know there are somethings i really wanted. it's nothing anyone could have given to me, so it's all good. didn't really get it but i didn't really mind. didn't think i was anyways.

=]
...a smile on face during holiday season. a real one too. not a fake one.
feels good.