#54 - last one of 2009

not really much to say.

except that this year was definitely filled with downs and ups.
and i say it like that because there were a lot more downs at first and then more ups in the latter part of the year...and they were some MAJOR downs and some MAJOR ups.

hopefully the start of the new decade will bring MAJOR ups throughout the year...

man...it's already been 10 years since the new millenium. wow. so many things have changed over the last 10 years...it was so different than the 90s. i wonder how these next 10 will differ from the last 10...

happy new year's to all!

#53 - its christmas time!

i like how i actually sound enthusiastic about christmas.
this is the first christmas in a while that i was actually quite happy and into it...even though it didn't even feel like christmas.

kind of feels like it crept up on me. i've been too busy to really let the holiday season sink in to me.
regardless, it was still a good christmas. didn't do much. i never usually do. went to a family friend's party for christmas eve...that's always chill. went to my cousin's christmas day. that was chill too...and i got to play with my cute nephews.

but yea, the past few years, christmas has been blah.
this year it wasn't. and i'm thankful for that. i'm actually feeling good and happy about it. and there's still new years.
i can never go out on new years though because my parents always hold a party at my house. kind of sucks because i actually want to go out. but it's whatevers. i'm not going to trip. i'm still pretty happy about everything.

didn't really ask for anything this christmas, but i know there are somethings i really wanted. it's nothing anyone could have given to me, so it's all good. didn't really get it but i didn't really mind. didn't think i was anyways.

=]
...a smile on face during holiday season. a real one too. not a fake one.
feels good.

#52 - snow trip

oh damn.
that was a fun weekend.

my snow trip started late on friday night, and i arrived with jeannine and kenneth. my goal was to get those two WASTED that first night because they've never been drunk before.
it was a success. jeannine was drunk and calling friends. kenneth was shitfaced and couldn't even walk anymore. ajay and i enjoyed seeing him drunk like that. he ended up throwing up and not remembering most of the night. good night for kenneth.

mary also got shitfaced. she was funny. but she's also grinding up and getting freaky on every person there. not just guys. but every person. she ended up throwing up some too, and i was there to take care of her. i had a pretty good buzz but i wasn't able to drink more to totally get messed up because i had to take care of people. i don't mind though. it's not like i'd just leave mary to suffer in a drunken state.
i was just happy she was there too.

aside from those three freshmen, there were several others running around drunk.
there were brownies made. special brownies. made by phil. not the easiest to eat as they were a bit hard on the outside, but i had 3 of them, and they hit me good.

i may not have gotten drunk, but i did get blown off those brownies.

this was the first night.

second day/night was fun too.
went tubing. was me, mary, jeannine, kenneth, kassandra, tony, christian, dane, and ajay. we were going crazy and doing different formations and different ways to go down the ice. we tried this formation where we held hands in a circle...and that just ended in an unsatisfactory manner to me. i fell off my tube, and since i was in front, i rolled on the ice, got run over by everyone else, and had my face dragged on the snow.
it really hurt. i was done after that.

then back to the house for more drunken fun. i drank continuously for a while. i remember just taking shots and eventually got drunk. i was more drunk than mary that night. more drunk than kenneth. and that's all i can really say.
i knocked out around 1 am.
i remember TAE coming...as in robbie, craig, JP, and macky...and creating so much noise that people couldn't sleep.

that gave me a headache when they were banging on our door. i was already drunk and trying to sleep.
eventually i was able to sleep though...while everyone downstairs would continue to get more effed up.

then the next morning...it was time to go back home.
boo.
i had a lot of fun at snow trip and i enjoyed being with the people that were there. i wish we all could have stayed another day...

it was a good way to start off my winter break though.
i already miss snow trip. had some awesome times up there.

#51 - it's thanksgiving

happy thanksgiving to everyone!
...or whoever may read this.

i actually feel quite thankful this year. i'm not going to lie, i don't always feel so thankful...especially in the past few years.

but this year...it's good.
plus it's my sister's birthday.

cool.

have a good one.

#50 - sleepover!

this weekend went by fast. spent some good time with the freshies.
christian. mary. tara. and dane.

they came over to my house in diamond bar and slept over.
it was kind of a last minute thing. actually, it was tara and mary's idea...then we told dane when we were about to leave...and same with christian.

it was chill. it would've been much better if my parents didn't come home. i thought they were at work...but NOPE. they surprised me in the middle of the night...while the rest of us were taking shots and right when me and christian were about to get the table for beer pong. haha.

i'm SO glad we didn't set up that table earlier...

the plan was to get christian drunk and let him entertain the rest of us. that didn't happen. but it was still a chill night.
it's nice to have people visit me in diamond bar. i don't see many LB people over where i live.

everyone slept late of course.
and the next day...before going back to LB...we went to life plaza in rowland heights and went to CUE.
yes, that's right. the very asian picture taking place where you draw on the pictures.
i realized how i totally fail in decorating those pictures. i'm not pro like some other people who go there all the time.

then i took them back to LB.

it was a chill weekend. i have a good time at home with them 4 visiting.
smiley face.

#49 - oh yeah =]

=]

i'm quite happy right now.
things are going prreettty good.


and i'm excited for christmas.

#48 - FUCK

FUCK


YOU

#47 - there's no 'i' in team

there's no 'I' in team - taking back sunday

it's an awesome song. pretty deep.
if you know the back story to this song concerning Brand New...it's quite interesting.

i just found out the exact meaning the song.
gotta say i could relate.

#46 - blah

blahhhhhhhhhhnesssssss.


i'm not really this no more.

#45 - pandemic

everyone and their moms are sick!

i shouldn't be out that much...it's kind of dangerous considering there's swine flu breakout at random places. my mom don't want me out either. whatever.

pretty much everyone i know is just sick with regular flu or cold. i feel it's only a matter of time until it reaches me.

airborne and vitamin c and water are my best friends right now. trying to fight off the sickness.

hopefully i make it through...

and hopefully everyone feels better real soon...

#44 - HELL NO FRIENDSHIP!

ahhhh. friendship games.

one of the biggest events every year for PAC.
not just PAC...but for all other pilipino clubs.
but mainly for PAC. because PAC is awesome at friendship games. no mercy. total assholes. piss off everyone. hell no friendship. i love it.

totally beats promoting friendship with everyone else. that's total pansy status.

this year was fun. way more fun than last year for sure. not totally sure if more fun than my first year, but still a lot of fun.
i've never lost my voice before. i lost my voice today at friendship games. i sounded like a little pansy going through puberty as noted through my continuous cracking voice.

played a game this year...again. i'm getting told for that stuff. the games are tiring too. freaking groundhog. didn't even place.

but of course, despite being mean to everyone, friendship games is awesome because i actually get to see my friends from high school who all went to colleges all over the place.

it's nice to see them. to catch up a little bit. to take pictures.
i miss them.

also, i like it because of the huge presence of Theta Delta Beta. the presence isn't all that strong at LB...but i'm sure they feel it at friendship games. bunch of bros with letters on. bunch of miserable looking pledges standing there/helping out the event. i'm totally biased but i say it looks better than painting your faces and running around being noisy and rowdy.

oh. that reminds me. we popped another club's balloons today. i was walking out of the bathroom and saw Mt. St. Mary's had balloons. so i run up to kevin and some other people and tell them we should pop their balloons. i see the zeta pledges coming up so i tell them, but i didn't think they'd listen to me. then i guess my words kicked in and they started looking for pens.
i had 3 pens. i let them use it.
results=awesomeness.
they totally rush the balloons and stab them.

they got mad. who cares. i'm happy we did it.
at least i don't get the blame. i didn't do anything.

KTFO when i got home.
good shit PAC.
HELL NO FRIENDSHIP!

#43 - totally missed out

so i guess there's a weekly thing on thursdays at ajay's.
i was supposed to be there last night, but NOOOOO...parents were home and i had to be home.
fml.

at least it wasn't only me who missed out. anjelica missed out too.
we missed out on it together...so we kept each other company...on VIDEO CHAT.

sounds pathetic. yea, whatever.
we tried video chatting with the people at the kickback. was a success for a while but ended being a fail. it only made us feel worse for not being there as we saw what we were missing out on.

then they left the video chat. and it was just me and anjelica.
it was cool. bonding time for us. we were on that video chat thing for like 5 plus hours.
that's a new record for me.

the whole time we kept texting jessieanne about updates on the kickback.

found out my ading, tony drank.
that was a bust. kind of dissapointed. kind of butthut.
i'm just excited to have an ading that finally comes out so i guess i was just hoping to be there when he drinks and gets drunk for the first time.
but NOPE! he chooses to drink the thursday i'm not around. then i hear problems from jessieanne about how stubborn the dude is and kept wanting to drive.
boo ading. you didn't wait for me.
sad face.

me and anjelica also kept hearing how donna was effed up out of her mind. when i kept asking people from the kickback who was drunk, they kept saying donna.
bummed me and anjelica out because i don't think she's ever seen donna drunk, and i've haven't seen her drunk in a while, because she's always choosing to not go that crazy.
but again, the night she chooses to go wild and crazy and cupcaking is the night me and anjelica missed out.

we were sad. everyone was fucked up and weren't there.
sad. sad. sad.
no one was even answering her text. anjelica texted several people and no one replied.
for me, jessieanne and tony replied. although tony's replies on facebook and textbook were all misspelled, evidence of his drunkenness. and the fool kept lying and said he wasn't drunk.

then anjelica and i heard some more crazy updates later, but i won't go into that.

ohhhh dear.
me and anjelica made a deal. next time we're going to be there for sure. and if everyone doesn't want to go all crazy next time, just leave it to me and her and whoever wasn't there (anthony, sacha, etc.) to party it up, regardless of whether everyone else joins.

boo. we effing missed out.
and then people rubbed in our faces too. not cool. *cough cough* tony

#42 - raindrops falling on the rooftops

rain is here.
fall is here.

i'm happy.
i was getting tired of the heat. i sweat too easily and it's too hot. plus i like wearing jackets and sweaters.

here's a haiku:

rain is falling down
i can't see when i'm driving
who cares? rain means snow

thank you very much.

#41 - replacement

lately

i feel like i'm being replaced...

#40 - 5 day weekends

i'm bored right now.
so i'm going to update.

so this first half of the term was quite fun.
since i only have class tuesdays and wednesdays...i went out a lot. and i mean a LOT.
i've been to LB almost everyday for the past 2 weeks. and i'd get home late in the night too. i didn't expect that that's how my days would play out after going to a private school for nursing.

it's cool. i don't mind.
i mean it's not going to last forever, so i might as well have my fun now.
but yea the last two weeks were just filled mainly for TDB rush events and some PAC events. i don't want to ghost in PAC. i heard there's a lot of new people this year.
definitely don't want to ghost in TDB. have to pick up a lil bro still.

plus i don't need all the 5 days of my weekend to study. it's not like i have a job.
so i go out.
TDB meetings, events. PAC meetings, cultural, events.
and then whatever else. just visiting friends when i can.
i can't complain so far about my semester. it's been fun.

i SHOULD be studying a lot more though. but i'm doing fine.

but since i've been coming home late...i'm now in trouble for having it happen too often.
dammit.
that's what sucks about living at home. especially with strict parents.

ok. that's all i want to write here.
off to my other blog.

yay for 5 day weekends. so chill.

#39 - free time

so i was thinking today...i have a lot of free time.

this past week i was out kind of a lot. like...5 days straight. that's not usual for me, especially with strict parents and also since i live at home.
but i just lie. it's not good...i know...but how else am i going to get out? i just tell them i'm going to the gym or joining a study group.

whatever gets me out of the house.

i've been down to LB quite often lately too. at the beginning of the year, i didn't think i'd be down there that much. but maybe it's because it's rush week last week and this next week. so i have good reason to be out for TDB.

speaking of TDB...i need to pick up a lil bro. i'm getting old in theta years, and i REALLY need to pick up. my last two dropped on me. sad face.

i got my friend jeannine from high school to go to a rush event...and i think she's going to be doing TDB lil sis. i'm happy because she's one of my good friends from high school.
i'm still working on getting trevor to do it though. i know he's busy...but i also think i can try to sucker him into doing it. haha.

so much free time...i'm able to just think about things. ok maybe not THAT much free time. but enough.

i realized i haven't updated my other blog lately. i should. i have quite a bit to update on that one. it's where i blog about more personal and private things. where i let out true feelings and such. i haven't done it in a while. i'm due to vent all that out.

this blog is just chill. nothing too crazy going on here.
i'm on here now only because i have free time. i don't even know what i really intended to talk about.

ok. now time for the private blog...

#38 - rush!

visited LB this week to rush.
not really just to rush, but to visit my friends of course. i miss seeing them everyday, and it was nice to see the PAC-ers and the bros and lil sisses.

i was rushing hard for guys though. i need a lil bro. i got first pick this semester and i gotta make sure to find a solid one that won't drop on me. man, i realized i'm old in theta years. crossed 2 years ago, but that's almost 5 classes ago.

i'm old schooL!

this week i'll see the guys who are interested. we got rush events for the next two weeks so i'm going to try to come down to LB more often.

it's hard because of my classes at WCU keep me busy. sad face there.

tomorrow is basketball night!
i'm down! and ready!

...but i ain't so ready for that damn pathophysiology test on tuesday...

#37 - bejeweled blitz!

it's a facebook game called bejeweled blitz.

and it's taking over my life!

it's so addicting! i can't stop playing it. even when i watch tv i'm thinking of awesome combinations i can do on the damn game!

oh dear.
another distraction keeping from my studies.

damn you facebook games!

#36 - a new year in a new school

so summer's ended.
a new school year comes.
and i'm kind of sad.
not because summer's over and i have to go back to school. naw. i'd actually be ok with that. i'd be ready for that.
but it's the fact that everyone i know seems to be starting school with other friends around and stuff.

i'm going to be alone at WCU.
it's like starting over. and it's so far from the people i know. not just long beach. but my friends in orange county.

this sucks.
boo.

i have to focus on the schooling, but it's kind of hard to focus when it's seeing your friends everyday that makes your day.

with that gone...what's going to keep me sane this school year?

hopefully there's a lot of hot girls in my classes.

#35 - last week of summer

it's the last week of summer.
i'm making sure i enjoy it by hanging with people. with whoever wants to hang out with me.
i'm going to be gone doing the whole nursing thing for 2 years straight (no summer or spring break...BUST!) so now is the time for me to just chill with friends.

there's a lot of people i still want to see and hang out with this last week...but i don't have time. and plus...some of those people...i don't really talk to or hang out with anymore. i guess summer has made friends drift apart. sad reality.

but it's also given me the chance to hang more with people that i didn't use to hang with before. that's always cool.

today...monday...enjoyed my day starting off with korean bbq. yes...ma dang sae. i know i complained about this place before because service really sucked but today wasn't bad. i was with jeff, jon, ray, kyrstin, and nate. it was good. satisfying.

then we all went home probably to let all that food out or something.

i waited until 6 to play ball. i love playing ball. i'd be happy doing it everyday.
so there i was...at the gold mine...playing ball. with jon and some of my bros and some other people. there weren't that many people today but it's all good...wednesday it will be fun.

then...for the first time in a long time, i saw some of my theta family. i stopped by omicron class's step. just to say hi and all. it was nice seeing them. i wish to see more them soon. because i won't be doing so as much in the school year. at least not as much as i saw them last year.

then off to ray's pad. beer pong. random. i don't know.
but we played beer pong. nate and i lost. caguama is a nasty beer. don't drink it.

that's about it. not TOO eventful but it was chill. i enjoyed my day.

what i did NOT enjoy was loading my crap from my condo into my car. it was heavy. it was hot.
moving out sucks.

so there. i wish to enjoy my days with more of my friends...the ones that still want to see me and hang out with me.
and for those that have gotten distant and i do not talk to anymore...it happens. i think it sucks and it saddens me.
but i can't really do anything about it. that's life.

just have to make the best of what i have now, right?
...wow an actual optimistic thought coming from me. scary.