#10 - make the best of this time

finals are coming up. meaning the end of the year. meaning possibly my last week or so here in LB.

i MIGHT be back for a semester next year. i might not.
i shouldn't bet on it. better not give it the benefit of the doubt.

so i was thinking lately...i should really try to use up this time to hang out more and catch up with the people i have lost touch with. it'd be nice to hang out with them, like really hang out, maybe one on one and catch up.
i don't really know who i'll be hanging out with still next year. plus i don't know how often i'll be seeing the people i do keep in touch with.

not that i don't want to keep in touch with everyone. i'm just being practical. i know i'm not going to keep the same relationships with everyone that i have now. it's just reality. plus i've learned from experience.

in high school, i'm sure we've all had people whom we've said to, or they've said to us, "we're going to keep in contact and know each other forever!"
how many of those people are we really still tight with?
i'd have to say very, very little. i mean yeah, i keep in contact with a lot of people, but it's not the same as it was as before.

people i was really close with are now acquaintances.
people that were acquaintances i do not talk anymore.
not like i didn't try. i hate to get distant. i make the effort.
but my efforts can only get me so far.
some people don't reciprocate those efforts.

may seem pessimistic. but i'm just being realistic.
i'd like to hang out with more people here in LB before next year. even throughout summer.
it'd be nice.

have a good day.
even though i hated these last two...